This picture was taken 20 weeks ago and yet it feels to me like I'm looking at a photo of someone else.
I look at this picture and all I see is a very happy me, just hours after giving birth, smelling my babies head and thanking God that labour was over and I finally had my baby in my arms.
Others just see huge eyelashes!
Yep I did have a full set of false lashes on the whole way through my labour and for a few weeks after. I also re did my make up during labour....
I hear you say...
But to me it was important to have photo's of me and my newborn that made me look less like I was dead and more like I was happy and content, as with my first I can't even look at the photos because I look awful... just to add, I allowed tired, just not the living dead.
The funny thing is after those lashes left me, so did my health.
I've hardly worn make up or my beloved lashes since.
Blood clots and suspected serious health issues have seen me housebound, hospital bound and mostly sofa bound and has lead to me not recognising myself in the mirror.
One day I will get back to this happy me.
One day, I will look in the mirror and say 'Welcome back'
Until that day...
I will just look at this picture and pretend it's a mirror.